Can't But Help Putting My Foot In It.

I put my foot in it a lot. Even if I don't mean to. It may just be one word, a poor bit of phrasing or the people who can't handle who I am. But it seems like the past few days, the only think I've done is put my foot in it. And it does feel like it's always my fault. When it's not... every one in a hundred times.

So what have I done? Well I tried to look out for a friend (and although she says we've done the right thing, everyone else doesn't think that), I argue with my mum practically every other sentence. I say something and then my mum gets angry. I say something and then my dad gets all patronising. And I walk away a lot. I argue my point.

The thing that's ticking me off at the moment is my mother. It seems that I can't speak without her getting unnecessarily angry. She gets all hissy at me when I don't speak to her much, but when I do speak to her nothing seems to be right. She doesn't listen. She is so closed minded at the moment. There is one set of rules for her, and another for me and another for my brother. These rules change everyday.

Loads of people seem to really like my mum, but they don't live with her. Yes she can be fun and lovely, but most of the time she is a stressed, angry, closed minded person. We don't get on. When you live with someone who only has their way of life, confrontation is inevitable. The little facade I put on when I'm around her and their are other people there is perfect. Everyone thinks we get on. When really we don't. I dislike her quite a lot of the time, and she knows it.

So even if you say: "I think that was unnecessary", she flies of the handle and goes on at you how you are unnecessary and that I can't speak to her like that and that she knows what's right and to top it off she ends it with you're always horrible. Love that women. Just can't get enough of her.

So yeah, I put my whole body in my grave this evening by having opinions. Like I've said before, life is easier if you are a mindless drone. Maybe I'm the problem. Meh, I'm a person with opinions and a mind. Freedom of thought and expression. You know what, feeling down makes everything seem a lot worse.