Feeling Low

Everyone feels low from time to time. I don't know why. If we did than maybe people would be able to stop it. Feeling low is perfectly natural, but there is always the possibility that it carries on. And that's how it first started. Couldn't escape it.

I don't know if I feel low because I'm tired or because I'm hungry and I have no energy. But when I'm low so many questions run through my head. I can't answer them and I can't stop the thoughts that swim around the questions. It is a constant stream of thoughts.

I hate feeling low. It feels empty and lifeless. I don't know. Sometimes all you need is a hug and someone to sit with and talk. Today my minds been on lies and secrets and the things that I used to love. I hate secrets and lies. But honesty hurts people. I feel empty today. Honesty is the most important thing, but sometimes it feels like it ruins everything. But being dishonest makes everything worse. But telling the truth is harder than people think.  Especially if you don't want to be honest to yourself. That's the hardest thing. Being honest to yourself. If you tell yourself a lie enough times it drowns the truth. Just like I tell myself it's the last time I'll count calories or it's the last time I'll eat less than 1000 calories. Everytime is a last time. But being honest and admitting that you need help is hard.

See, my thoughts have wondered. I started off with feeling low and ended on food. I hate thinking about food. But when you're feeling low, all you need is someone to talk to. It's nice for someone to listen. Erg. Emotions are a rollercoaster. Up. Down. Up. Down. Feeling low is just so rubbish. This time yesterday I was I was as happy as a happy thing. But waking up and feeling low is just so meh. Feeling low is cured by people and talking. Or magic. Magic is good.

This post really has no meaning. Sorry.