Starlight!

There is something about looking up at the night sky and seeing all the stars smiling (or frowning) back down at you! It is beautiful but at the same time makes you feel completely and utterly worthless! The way that they make the sky seem a deep, deep, rich velvety navy-royal blue! They just bring out the colour of the sky!

Then the night air tastes and smells so different to the normal air in the day! It tastes and smells crisper and fresher and cleaner! Then with the stars it tastes like a cascade of raining diamonds in a grey light! Flickers of light just falling down and shimmering and shining in every direction!

And if you sit in the middle of a field with a fire gently crackling in burgundy flecks and the grass damp beneath your blanket and a cup of tea by the fire and lie down and just look at the sky, you can hear the most beautiful music. Its so quite and the colours and shapes of all the little noises create an orchestra in your vision...

The burgundy flecks of the fire is the harp playing so softly. The gentile hum of all the insects are the violins and violas in an orange buzz. The occasional pass of a car goes by in a fizz of haribo and is the drum. The owl is the piano in a shower of blues and purples and greens. The rustle of the leaves is the collection of clarinets, oboes and bassoons in a wisp of  yellows and mellow greens and blues. The taste of the air creates the flutes. And the quiet sound of your breathing creates the royal red of the cello. Finally the stars create the deep, deep, rich, velvety navy-royal blue of the Bass...

BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sounds mad, but that's just me!

Call Me Crazy, But...

Call me crazy, but the colours are dancing like a party! It is awesome! They are so much brighter and just seem to be dancing as if there is music in my head. Upbeat, get up and dance, party music. It is awesome!

It's like the yo-yo has gone up and is staying on a high. Woo! Party! Loving life! So many plans and thoughts just buzzing through my mind. I could plan out my future in the next five minutes where it would usually take a week or two normally on one of these awesome high moods.

I will go to college, take the IB or four/five A-levels. The IB options I would take would be Spanish, English and performance, Biology, Chemistry, Maths and Psychology. The A-levels I would take would be Biology, Chemistry, Religious Studies, Psychology and possibly English Literature or Maths. Then I'll go to university to study medicine.  I'll do my rotations and either specialise in Cardio-vascular surgery, Neurology, Psychiatry or Emergency medicine. I'd love to get a job as a cardiac surgeon. I'd like a guy who loves me. Who gets me for me. That would be nice. But it is not essential. I would love a successful career. To just be so involved in medicine, my passion, and save so many people and just to help them. Improve their quality of life.

If I ever have a family, we'd have a dark blue VW camper van. Just for holidays. We'd walk and cycle everywhere else. Have a healthy lifestyle. Meals would always have a set time and bet set out on the table so everyone can help themselves. We would have a family meal at least once a week. The children would all play an instrument and do a sport. It wouldn't be controlling, but they would be able to choose as long as they did that. We'd have two cats and they'd each get a guinea pig when they are five, to teach them responsibility. The house would have two music rooms. One with a grand piano in the centre on a raised platform. It would have pale walls and one glass wall that overlooks either the garden or the woods or fields or the sea or something beautiful. The other would have other instruments in. We'd go to Church on a Sunday, but the children would be allowed to make their own minds up about their faith. They'd be taught to cook. There will be a room dedicated entirely to books. I'd get married either in a picturesque Church or in the middle of a field with woods on one side under a arch made of recycled wood. The chairs would be mix-matched in style but all the same colour. It will be a sunny day and there would be a barn for shelter. The blue VW would be in the barn with a white bow on it. There would be no alcohol.

But at the moment, I am going to work so hard to achieve A*'s and A's in all my GCSE's. I'm going to volunteer with St. Johns Ambulance service and do my silver DofE then my gold. I am going to take up running again and do yoga, got to replace my Karate with something. I'm going to get back into reading. I'm going to study and not destroy my future. I'd love to learn a new skill. Something useful. I'm going to get work experience placements in hospitals, and a job. Everything is going to be planned out and perfect. Nothing is going to stop me. When I set a goal or target,  I am going to stick to it and achieve it. Nothing is going to stop me from being the best I can possibly be and achieving what I can achieve. Nothing! I will make the most out of the person I could possibly be!

I want to party, go to Glasgow or go on a shopping spree. Just something to celebrate this awesome revolution. I just want to let go and start again. Erase all the bad and fill it with good and happiness. Seriously, green is the best thing ever. It makes me think I can do anything, that;s because I can. So bring on the Latin and Physics. But I am so ready for this new beginning. Out with the bad. Bad foods, bad thoughts and bad emotions and in with the best things. Life is changing and for the better!

"Knowledge is life with wings."

William Blake is my favourite poet. Poetry is not dead, it is very much a live. Lyrics to your favourite shitty rap song are poetry, although bad ones. Very bad ones. William Blake was a fantastic poet! Yeah, he was a bit mad, but all geniuses are! He was, and is, better than any modern day poet or song writer! He just chose not to write his poem to some stupid, machine made sound that you all seem to class as music. He didn't write only about love, drugs, sex, ex's or some other seemingly irrelevant thing. He wrote magic! And logic!

"What is now proven was once imagined..." 

Well it was, wasn't it. Once we dreamed of flying to the stars and new lands. Once we dreamed all of these seemingly impossible dreams, but now, well now they are a reality.

"Everything to be imagined is an image of truth..." 

Again, true! Even our wildest dreams and aspirations have truth in them. There is no escaping honesty. It chases after you. We imagine what we want to happen, and in there are elements of truth. Our future. Everything is like that. 

"How can a bird that is born for joy, sit in a cage and sing?"

How can something have it's soul purpose removed from it's life and still be expected to do it? Why cadge a bird when it is supposed to be free to enjoy life. How can you put it in a cadge and expect it to sin for you, when it has no freedom? You can't. So follow what your heart says and do not suppress the enjoyment that you, as an individual, were made for. 

You can be anything in life, do anything, achieve anything, as long as you do it and don not expect others to. There is no limit as to what you can do, as long as you put your mind to it and do it. You can never reach an end because only you are capable to push yourself towards all of these infinite possibilities. 

"To see a world in a Grain of Sand

And a Heaven in a wild flower,

Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand

And Eternity in an hour..."

Only a fool would not see the beauty in this. There is a whole different life time going on inside the smallest of things. And true beauty can be shown in the purest, strongest things. The creations of God make a heaven on Earth if you look at the design and beauty of it all. You have the power to create infinite chances and create the best things in your life in the small window of life that you get a glimpse at. These possibilities are not a fabrication, but an actual thing and each one is as unique as the individual creating them. 

"In the Universe, there are things that are known, 

and things that are unknown and in between, 

there are doors."

So, in life you have things that are certain to exist, things that cannot possibly be, and things that nobody knows about. You have to find out about them by taking a risk and opening a door that will lead down a new path and will hold things that are uncertain. But that is the only way forwards as otherwise you are going to be so stuck in your ways, that you are going to lose everything. The known is boring, the impossible is out of bounds, so the unknown is the only way forwards. It may not be the safest path, but it is the one that is going to throw the most chances at you. 

TURIN BRAKES!

Turin Brakes are amazing! They write some beautiful music. Yes, the lyrics are odd and dark, but the music itself is so amazing. I love their music as much as life itself! It is so awesome!

So I spent my afternoon in a small, crowded record shop just to listen to them play a few songs. It was amazing! They are really short and funny. But it was the best forty-five minutes of my life! They played a few songs, four or five. Three from their new album: 'We were hear' and two from older albums. It was AMAZING!

Now, being the stalker of a fan I am, I got all three of my albums signed (They have six, but the other three are on the computer) and I got my picture with them! They are really nice guys!

So the music itself is what made me fall in love with them. The lead singer, Olly Knights, has a voice that makes my knees go weak. It is a gorgeous shade of green. It is rich and like the colour of an emerald. It has that glorious green shine to it. It is so deep and gentle and beautiful. It just engulfs you in a veil of greenness.
And then you have the light green Tuesday of the guitar and the slightly more greener-green of the other guitar in those zigzags. And the dark blue of the harmony that Olly does with Gale. Gales voice is such a lovely peaceful blue. It is a dark sapphireish blue. Maybe a bit lighter and less deep and more see through.  And the circles of the drums in the pinkish-red that just dance around. And the gentle explosion of stars in a cascade of orange and rose and indigo from the tambourine with the bells on. And the tiny, tiny, tiny triangles with rounded edges of the maraca that swirl in a washed out orange and red rain like down wards spiral, like the things you get in gardens that seem to disappear after a certain point. It just all interlocks so beautifully.

And then the violet hue that just melts into it. The love they show for their music is unreal. It is just so magical. It blends really well and it just looks so beautiful. Their music does sound slightly ethereal, but it is amazing and so unique it is impossible not to fall in love with it.

So here are some videos and pictures of the gig. Sorry about my poop singing in the background and stuff. But it was contagious!!

Well, there are a few videos. There are four of them, but to be honest, you're probably bored and the filming is so poor you aren't even listening. And I can't get them to upload. So ya know. But it was an amazing day! I LOVE IT!

Todays Song

'Bird of Sorrow' by Glen Hansard is todays song. And no, it's not Disney. But it is just as beautiful.  The song really means something to me. It really fits today and how everything feels.

Glens voice is a sea of dark green and blue. The green is like the colour of leaves after they have been rained on. It's dark but not too dark. It has shade to it. It's not a block colour like other voices have. The blue is a stormy blue. It is fairly colbolt, but darker. The two shades kind of interlock in this odd way in this jelly beanish sort of motion. There are gaps. There is a touch of a dark violet in the gaps. The whole thing is then washed over with a light, fresh, Tuesdayish green.

The piano underlying the voice spirals and dances around in blue squares. Like a summer sky blue and gradually getting lighter until there is a washed out baby blue. These are the higher notes. Then there is the darker woolly green and the dark brown of beer and a really nice dark violet. But from that G to the second D above middle C it is violet that slowly mixes to the sky blue. That's my favourite octave and a bit.

Then there is the gentle orange hum of the violinish thing and the pink-red-purple beating of the drum kit and the light Tuesday green of the guitar. The whole thing is set on a black background. It's beautiful.

The reason it is today's song is because it's got sad lyrics and a slow tempo but then it builds up into this awesome crash of sound and colour that dances so beautifully. The simplicity and minor key of the piano reflects the feeling of sadness that today has had. The song itself is about Glens mother and how she put up with the drunken rage of his father and how Glen admires her for keeping up hope. And from the aftermath of a fight yesterday, it just fitted today.

The music that Glen writes is so inspirational to me. I love it. I mean where does he find all this emotion to write about? My favourite part is the way he fits "squandered" into it. It's awesome.

So that's today's song. I feel a bit sad but there are some awesome highs. So yeah.

I've Fallen In Love...

I've fallen in love with music! Music is so important. I love to write it, play it and listen to it. My keyboard is a part of my heart as is my iPod. I am so in love with music there is no way back. The colours of the voices in the songs, the colours of the instruments, the way it all looks, the way it feels, the way there is a song to fit every emotion down to the finest detail, ,the way music is so free, they lyrics. Just everything about music makes my heart sing. Ironic that. 

But I don't fall in love with bad music. It has to have meaning and the right balance of colours. The voice has to have something to it. The colour of it has to fit. The instruments have to work together so beautifully that you don't know they are all so different. The lyrics have to be meaningful and clever and have something in them. I love this Indie-Folk mix of music. 'The Frames', 'Turin Brakes', 'Fleet Foxes', 'Russian Red' ect. I love typical country, my personal favourite being 'Josh Turner'- there is just something about his voice- and I love the typical folk of 'Alela Diane'. Then there is the slightly more up beat stuff that I love. But music has to have meaning and passion and fit well together. 

The Frames. Image from mairoseboutique.com

I have a song of the day. It is a song that I listen to that day just because it fits. Today it was 'Can You Feel The Love Tonight' by 'Elton John'. It fitted today because it is happy if you really listen to the lyrics, but the tempo is sad. Today was a sad day, despite how happy I was. The song just seemed to fit it perfectly. 

My song of the day sometimes lasts for weeks. About two months ago it was 'Junkie Song' by 'The Be Good Tanyas'. It fitted because it was so sad and helpless. That doesn't need explaining. But the song didn't change because it fitted so well. Another time '5 Mile (These Are The Days)' was my song for about a month. I think it was because of the lyrics. But music is powerful and can reflect anything.

Disney music is so clever and beautiful. They lyrics have the most meaning. You cannot get better than the clever lyrics of 'Bare Necessities' from 'Jungle Book'. They lyrics are so clever. But the music is beautiful. The older songs are definitely my favourite. Disney is so beautiful. The music, characters, story lines... Disney is amazing. Disney is a pick-me-up and a comfort. As a child you watch Disney. You go to the charity shop and pick up the videos for 50 pence. Disney is something that everybody has in common. It is beautiful.  

Image from startedbyamouse.com

I want to get married to 'You'll Be In My Heart' from 'Tarzan'. I'd love to have a romantic dinner with 'The Little Mermaids' 'Kiss The Girl' playing in the background. On my birthday I'd love to be woken up to 'Under The Sea' playing in Spanish. If a guy ever asks me to marry him, it has to be 'Kiss The Girl' in Italian. When I am feeling down, I text my best mates and put on 'You've Got A Friend In Me'. When I want a good cry, I listen to 'Little April Showers' from 'Bambi'. When I want a laugh or something on goes 'Hakuna Matata' or 'Bibidi Bobidi Boo' or something. Disney fits every emotion and will always play an important part in my life. Love Disney! 

For me, the older movies are the best. Everyone has so much character in itself. The best modern Disney has to be 'Toy Story' or 'Monsters Inc.' Disney spins so many beautiful stories and makes so many childhoods. It is beautiful. Life is not complete without Disney. 

To be perfectly honest, I love music so much I am totally and utterly in love with it. It holds the key to my heart. Live music is my favourite way to listen to music apart from the crowds and drunk people. Seeing 'Noah And The Whale' live was awesome. It's a memory that I will hold forever, but I prefer to sit and watch music, whether it be a busker, a friend or something. Music is so magical. Falling in love with music is so easy and being connected to it is amazing. 

Good music is slowly dwindling as it is replaced by meaningless rap and songs that are written in a studio on a machine. Music should be something that we all love and take time over to create something magical. Who needs studio created sounds when you can get the more natural sounds from an instrument? I love music so much and I think that every song should be created with care and meaning. One of my favourite bands front men made his album on an old recording machine in his living room. He had to record each instrument individually. But before he did that, he had to mend the machine. That is true love for music. 

Music is so important and beautiful. It has been around for so long and will last for ever. It is a gist and beautiful. It is so easy to create music, but to create works of art with music is amazing. Music is amazing and you should love it with your heart! 

Sorry about the amount of links, but music is just too amazing not to link it to anything at all. So ya know.