Let Down

My dad is a let down. Time and time again he lets me down and makes empty promises and he always messes things up for me, like my dream job. He always does it. He drinks and drinks and drinks and hurts me emotionally time and time again. I guess I should have learnt by now not to trust him or to know that he will let me down.

It sounds trivial but its always about my older sister and younger brother with him. I'm just his spare. I don't mind that but its when he tells you this and then lies about it to his friends and makes out how much he cares about you. But when did he ever take me to karate or to a fight. When did he ever offer to help me learn piano or to buy me a book. He has never helped me with anything. There's never anything for me.

He has let me down too many times. He messes up my chances at anything I want to do. That's because he is a drunk and nasty man who deserves nothing from his life any more. He expects you to tip toe around his drinking and how he feels. He goes off without telling anyone and then gets pissed when you don't care or notice. He is a nasty man who drives around drunk and hurts you. And he lets you down and messes life up for you if you aren't like him.

He is a nasty man who shouts and tries to make out that he is incapable of anything. I'd rather he was out of my life forever so that I can never be hurt or let down by him again. Mum says all men are like that. But if they are, I'm going to have a lonely life because of him.