Knowing You Can't Have It.

I've worked out what's making me unhappy and making me think a lot and doubt a lot. And I know that I have a lot of work to do until it's fully okay. Coz I wanna get back on a 900 calorie diet even though I know that it will kill me, ruin everything that I've worked through and achieved. So I won't. But at least now I know that it's bothering me.