Christmas is a time of year which the majority of people love. A time for family, food, presents and other stuff. It is supposed to be a magical time of year. Full of laughter, joy and drunken merriness. But I'm a scrooge so it doesn't mean anything to me. It's just another day.
But this year has been better. I don't know if it has been because of my friends who are all mad and lovely, or it feels like the end of a year long downwards spiral and I'm finally on the way out, or if it's because I've let go of my hate for the world and humanity. But all I can say is that this year I no longer have this strong hate for this holiday.
Since December last year I am proud to say that I have got so much better! I no longer find myself in this big black hole of depression or self hate or anything like that! I haven't self harmed in months :) and I am alot happier. My weight is stable and my life seems to be together and happy!
Christmas does have some magic I guess. Coz it makes you realise how greatful you are. I love life and I love every person in my life! Thank you for being there and thank you for being the most supportive and wonderful friends I have ever had. Thank you ma girls, ma bitches, ma dudes and ma babe! Thank you for being the most wonderful human beings on the planet! I love you all!!!!!!!! xxxxx
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